There are a lot of things I regret but I guess losing www.claudneann.com is not one of them. I don’t exactly know why but last week I tried fixing it and believe me I couldn’t sleep the whole night because I just didn’t want to lose it but after spending two days looking for the problem and failing, I just decided to let it go. I am at a point where I just need a fresh start. Again. I know I just got www.claudneann.com last January and I’m starting from scratch again now but I just don’t want to dwell on things that I can’t really control. It gave me the chance to recharge, come up with new ideas, and a whole lot more. It made me want to be better. I want to produce better content. I want to learn a lot of things and sometimes it’s overwhelming me already but that’s just the truth. I want to be the best version of myself. I want to prove myself that I can do so much more. My blog is my safe space, my baby and my home. It’s all I ever had since I started. It became an outlet, a place where I can just share a piece of me without caring, and it gave me a chance to discover myself more. For some people, who constantly mocks bloggers, blogging may be a way to be famous, to look cool for them but all I know is that they will never realize how accomplished it feels when I publish a blog post, how freeing it feels to release my annoyance or my happiness, how time consuming blogging is that I don’t have time to overthink/for anxiety.
Blogging – it doesn’t have rules. You don’t have to be rich, to have gadgets, to travel often, to be good at speaking a certain language, or to be artsy. You don’t have to be something you’re not. You know, I used to be so conscious. I was always worried that people will judge my grammar. It was the primary reason why I hid my blog from people for years but at some point, you/we/I had to realize that I shouldn’t let their opinions stop me from doing what I love, from growing and from loving life. To love life is to do the things you love, no matter how useless and stupid other people think it is.
For the nth time, I am starting afresh. I don’t care. I just want to do things that can give me a chance to make me genuinely happy. I’m so grateful for all the love I received and I am receiving from the blogging community and it just motivates me to be so much more. If you have any ideas, suggestions, posts that you want to see from me, or if you just have anything that you wanna say, please let me know on the comments section below. I will forever be grateful. And if you’ve reached this point, thank you.